Knowing My Worth

I am a woman of principles.

I’d rather lose people than myself.

For every man is for himself and every woman is for herself.

For I am better off without you.


All the lonely people, where do they all belong?

Maybe I am not meant to wind up with anyone. Betrothed only to the fictional characters from the books that have perpetually filled the void in me. Forever longing for the presence of another being who will never ever be. Forced to be complacent with only the pleasures of good reads.

The First Time

Ever looked at the things you own and thought about the day you got ‘em? The first time you came across ‘em and how they made you feel. It’s the same with people. Ever looked at or thought about someone and then be reminded of your first encounter with ‘em? And wished you could relive that day once again? Just so you could feel all the things you were feeling at that point in time.

The Look of Love

I used to only have great things to say about you. Beautiful words such as incandescent, becoming, and charming crossed my mind at the thought of you. Now I can only think of rather unfavorable terms like uncertain, inconsistent, and clueless. It saddens me to finally see the kind of person you’ve always been and not the person who was beautifully painted in my heart.

Momentary Bliss

Whenever something good happens, I always ponder upon the day it ends. How will I feel then? How will I be then? Will I still be the same person as before it happened? Or will there be a void in me that needs to be filled? It’s always so sweet and short, this good thing. A momentary bliss. The last time it happened to me was years ago. I sometimes long for that particular day. Wishing I could relive it even just for a day. I hadn’t expected it to happen, but it did. For that, I am eternally grateful. Because if it didn’t, I wouldn’t have met a pretty rad being who has inspired me so much over the years. I hope to experience something similar in the near future, something good. But this time, I’d appreciate it if it happens for the long run.

The Holy Matrimony

If I ever get married in the future, I seriously pray that I’ll get married to a man who uses his mind before responding to any situations. Who doesn’t yell or cuss at anyone, regardless. Who doesn’t pursue any argument when it’s initiated. Who doesn’t use force in any situation unless need be. Who always retreats. Who loves unconditionally. Who loves generously. Who protects unquestionably. I don’t ever want my kid(s) to worry about the “adult stuff” until they’re supposed to when they’re living on their own. I don’t want my kid(s) to worry about their education because it’s my responsibility with my husband to provide them that. And we will grow old together, enjoying the life that we’ve built together, frisbee-ing our cares away. Watching our kid(s) succeed. Watching our kid(s) build their own lives. Perish together in peace.