Sometimes you meet someone, but you’re not meant to get to know them. Standing opposite of each other in the MRT en route to god knows where. Sharing a moment so brief yet so deep without uttering a single word. A moment that feels like forever until the other person gets off the next immediate stop. Inconspicuously exchanging the final we-are-never-going-to-cross-each-other’s-path-again glances. But who’s to know for sure?
The year’s just beginning and I’d welcomed it with an open mind and heart. Acknowledging that things may go as planned or south. Regardless of the outcomes, I have decided to be a happy person with happy thoughts. I’d spent most of my years living on this planet being mad and sad at the world and its inhabitants, so mad and sad that I’d literally perpetuated negativity into my life. While we may never be rid of problems, it doesn’t mean that we can’t look for good in each of our problems. It’s all about choosing the right angle. Being happy should be as easy as being sad. I feel like sadness is over romanticized that we forget how great it is to feel happy and content. Human beings are capable of feeling different types of emotions, why settle just for the boring ol’ anger and sadness? Living is about making a choice, the choice doesn’t have to be right. There really isn’t a right or wrong answer in living, it’s all about discovering what works best for you. Everyone is a work in progress. Have faith. You’ll be fine.
All the wants
and all the needs
don’t mean a thing
‘cause you’re the only one
that I could ever want and
that I could ever need, ultimately.
One day, I will look back to my idle days wishing I could live through them again because then I’ll be too caught up with life and may not be able to have my days idled away anymore.
I have cried the most this year. I have been heartbroken the most this year. So much so a big portion of my heart has calcified. Figuratively and not literally. I no longer want to fill the pages with agony and sadness. Indeed, everyone has their own destined Rizq. And I shall hold onto this and remain placid.
Why should I suffer the consequences of other people’s poor decision making?
He now exists
amongst the cells
in my hippocampus.